Forgiveness in Marriage

by Trish
(CA, USA)

Forgiveness in Marriage: I am desperate for God's wisdom, guidance, strength, mercy, peace and joy...most of all for His forgiveness for seeking my own way, for justifying my sinful actions and reactions. Most of all forgiveness for hardening my heart to Him. Please pray for my husband who seems to be getting more and more angry, aggressive, impatient, resentful, selfish and self absorbed. He is hurting our marriage and relationship with things he is doing - he doesn't have any desire to improve our marriage or relationship - he doesn't want to change or sacrifice. He actually get angry and vents verbally when life stops being about him. It's very hard to continually be submissive and giving when your only value is to please someone else...and there is "no" regard for you. There are other areas as well that need prayer - my health - issues that caused me to put on weight that I "have" to lose. Work, need to improve my habits. Friend - something has happened between my closest friend and I but I don't know what it is. She doesn't communicate or plan time together and hasn't of almost a year. I've asked her about it because she cancelled with me to do something with another person but says there's nothing wrong. I tried to schedule another day to meet and she asked me to wait... it hurts. My daughter's health. Missing my family in a different state. Our finances have greatly lessened (thanking God for meeting our needs). Things have changed a lot in our church (we no longer have the two ministries my husband and I were in) and I feel very disconnected. I really feel lost right now...