I Don't Want a Divorce

(Seattle, wa)

I Don't Want a Divorce: Yes, I believe God answers prayer, however I believe God doesn't always answer the way I would like, especially when someone's free will is involved...I know I am praying in God's will for my marriage to not be put asunder by my spouse, however only one is all it takes to end a covenant, legally by our government...

My spouses heart is without hope and severely hardened towards me, and even though my spouse is serving god with his time and life daily..I don't know what to pray...its all been so confusing and unimaginable...

I want God to change me and my heart, I want God to change my husband and his heart, I want God to reveal to my husband that he should be true to his word and God's word, and not seek a divorce, I have remained emotionally, physically, and spiritually faithful to my spouse always. I believe I have tried to reconcile for so long, however I have made many mistakes in doing so in how I have related or responded to my husband, instead of trusting and going to God first and foremost.

I want God to reconcile not just the two of us, but all of our children, that became one family for many years...some of the adult children are apathetic or want it over, some are very injured and want it restored and reconciled.

This is all I can say for now.