Lost and confused about my marriage

(South Carolina )

Lost and confused about my marriage: I am praying for clarity. My husband and I have been married more than 13 years. I thought we would be forever. I found out that he not only has committed infidelity, but he has committed it AGAIN shortly after being caught. I am torn between my spirit and my flesh. I do not want him as a husband. I do not want to try and trust him, but I know that God is amazing and he can do amazing things. I feel I should hold on because I know who God is, not who I am, or who my husband is.

I pray that God softens my heart and he softens the heart of my husband. I know that I have a peace in me cause I have done all "I" can do. That is my self. After reading and studying Gods word and The Prodigal Spouse guide, I know that I am now charged with laying out before God and seeking him to change me and to change my husband. Right now, I am even hard hearted toward the guide. I feel I do not even want to try to mend my marriage. But, I feel like a failure and that I did not do all I can cause I did not complete the task of the guide. In that guide there are things I have not done, so I did not do ALL I can, but I don't want to either. Not sure what to DO!

I pray today that God's will be done, I pray for clarity and understanding. I pray that God makes it clear where I should go now and what I should be doing. I feel a sense of loss and confusion. This is a new feeling for me. I pray for clarity and the spirit of discernment.

In Jesus name....AMEN!