Prayer for tonights first talk after separation

by Laurie
(Nebraska)

Prayer for tonight's first talk after separation: My first marriage was abusive, troubled for 18 years. He filed for a divorce and we divorced in 2002 after he decided to pick a nurse for a fun time partner. Plus, I learned of actions that I never knew with my children.

I never meant to ever find another relationship; however, I met my 2nd husband and remarried in 2005. I had 5 children and he had 2 children. It was great the first 3 years until his daughter came to live with us. Things seemed to have changed all the way around. My husband and I separated this October. We both moved out of our nice rented house and rented separate places with years leases.

I asked for the separation after 5 years of problems. He did not treat my kids with the same care that he treated his own. There seemed to be maliciousness with them. I saw it all the way through the 5 years; but I kept forgiving and forgetting in order to save the marriage. He never wanted to really talk about problems. It got stored up and finally cracked in October.

I feel awful about it. It hurts. I miss him and wish that things could be the way they used to be when they were good for us. I wish that there weren't problems. He has been good to me, but it hurts to see him treat my grown kids as if they don't belong in his picture.

I have called him today to ask if we can talk. It will be the first time since we have separated that we will talk about us. Please pray for this moment in time tonight.