Save Our Marriage

by Anonymous
(Australia)

Save Our Marriage: My husband cheated on me and cites the root of the problem being me and the way I was towards him. He apologized but his betrayal has caused me to become suspicious and paranoid, unable to immediately trust again. We have had many arguments since the discovery but recently he said he is leaving me, he is not leaving the kids but he is leaving me. He seems to have shut the door and he makes me feel that it is all my fault. he doe not love me anymore , has no interest in me, in having relations with me. I feel that i am like a doormat, treated with contempt and disgust. He talks to me only when I talk to him, and his answers are scarce and detached. He seems to have shut the door and he makes me feel that it is all my fault when I have been equally hurt deeply in more ways than one in the marriage. He thinks that this decision is a free will option as the bible speaks. Mind you we are both Christians. Please pray that he be renewed in God and truly see His ways and His plan for us.... I believe is restoration and oneness. I pray for healing of memories and that he would have a renewed passion for me his wife. Nothing that I say or do will change him but only the conviction of the Spirit o see that love is a decision and a choice he makes. Is there anything too hard for God? I am broken, devastated and distraught and have wailed before God. I know I have misgivings as he does but I have always asked God to intervene and change my heart...he seems to have shut the door on the possibility that God can still work miracles in him. Now he wants space and I feel he wants to live like a single person wanting to do whatever he wants. Pray that he would realize that separation and desertion is not the answer but in marriage God can make things happen. Pray that his interest and desire in the marriage in its entirety be rekindled. Pray that his love for me be made manifest again. Pray that he would have a rekindling in his love for God and obedience to His will. My hope and strength is in Christ alone. Thank you and God bless you