To be my husband's first priority

by Melanie
(Parma Heights)

To be my husband's first priority: I am praying for my husband's heart to be opened to make me his #1 priority, next to our God. My God know I am desperate, and so does my husband. I have spoken to my husband about how I am deeply wounded by not being put 1st in his life, next to God. The order of the house is supposed to be God, wife, children, family, work...and my husband has his own order of God, children, work, wife, family. See how I am after work and the kids. We went away to the Family Ministries Marriage seminar, and it was a disaster. He has two kids from another marriage and they live where the seminar was. It was my idea to visit them after the seminar; however, he planned every night with them, and one of the nights was supposed to be our date night and he planned it with the kids instead. I feel so desperate for love from him and now I am just angry. He continually breaks my heart. I am so hurt inside and out. It is wearing on my mind, soul and body. I am very clear with communication and all he does is tell me that he cannot be close to me because I am angry. I have tried to relax and just let it go, and he just keeps on putting me last. It hurts so badly to know, see and feel that I am not #1 in my husband's heart, next to God. The Lord gave marriage so that it could be a reflection of His relationship with us. The oneness is NOT there for me, and it is literally killing me. Lord, I know you hear my prayer, and I ask you to change my husband's heart to love me the way you commanded him to love me.