Trapped in Marriage

After three years, I can still feel the pain of adultery. My husband fell in love and wanted to leave me and my children and marry a co-worker. However, God sent my husband home. It was if God snatched him out of what he was in and brought him back. So he didn't return because he wanted to. He doesn't even like me. I don't like him either. Every time, I've wanted to leave since, the Holy Spirit reminds me of how I left God and turned my back on Him. I more than anything want to represent Christ. But how do I continue to live with my worst enemy. He has told me so. I still feel that his heart is with the other woman. I don't know if he'll ever be free from it. I feel as though God won't let me leave. Help Trapped!!!